Meet Marie Gonzalez

We recently connected with Marie Gonzalez and have shared our conversation below.

Hi Marie, really happy you were able to join us today and we’re looking forward to sharing your story and insights with our readers. Let’s start with the heart of it all – purpose. How did you find your purpose?

In July of 2020 I made eye contact with myself in the mirror for the first time in what seemed like a lifetime. We all brush our teeth, brush our hair, check out our outfit in the mirror every day, but how often do we stop and look ourselves in the eye? When I did, I couldn’t believe what I saw. An exhausted “old” woman was staring back at me! Who the fuck was she??? Who was this woman who had so much pain in her eyes, who looked like she hadn’t slept in years, who couldn’t smile at herself, who couldn’t believe what she had become? I cried. And cried. And fell to my knees on the bathroom floor. That reflection scared the shit out of me … that woman staring back at me wasn’t ME – that wasn’t my face, those weren’t my eyes, nor my frowning face. Right? I was this happy-go-lucky fireball that was always smiling, laughing and loving towards everyone around me. Where was she at? Where did she go?

That day I broke down. That reflection broke my heart. I had fallen so far from the woman I always believed I was. The light I had always felt shining bright inside of me was barely a flicker … I was disappearing, dying while there was still breath in my lungs and blood pumping through my heart. At that moment I understood what it was to die while still alive. Then, this small voice whispered, “I am STILL HERE.” Tears poured down my face. I stood back up and looked in the mirror and I could see her, she was still there … behind the pain, the shame, the fucking unrelenting voice that said I deserved this. Behind all of that, there she was, just waiting for me to see her. I clasped my hands together and prayed for a way out. I asked my mom, my guides, the Universe, Source, God, anyone that was listening to please help me! I couldn’t do it by myself … I needed Divine intervention to guide me. I had to give up thinking that I had to do it all, that it was all up to me. I gave the reins back to God, to the Universe and said, “Help me, please! This isn’t the life I want, this isn’t the way I want my kids to grow up, this isn’t me living my truth, this isn’t sharing my gifts with the world. This is misery, darkness and it’s killing everything in me that feels beautiful, magical and inspirational!”

Less than 2 months after this plea for help, a catastrophe happened FOR me that shook up my whole life! Everything was “gone” in the blink of an eye and I had to pick up the pieces of my life and put them all back together. The pain was so horrific and so overwhelming, but I made it through. I had faith, unwavering faith, that the Universe had my back. The transformation that came from this has shaped the woman I am today. The woman that wears her scars proudly, that doesn’t judge her past choices and knows the depths she went to in order to find herself again! I have learned so much and will continue to learn, evolve, and level up! I hope to help other souls find this level of peace, clarity and joy in their lives too! Like a phoenix from the ashes, I fly renewed and embodied in my truth …

It has become my passion and PURPOSE to help others find their way back home. No matter how far they have fallen, no matter how deep into the abyss they drifted, no matter the amount of abuse they endured, we get to come back home to ourselves, to the love within us! I now teach others the mindset shifts, embodiment practices, somatic modalities, and tools that helped me through the hardest time of my life and brought me to the strongest I’ve ever been.

Let’s take a small detour – maybe you can share a bit about yourself before we dive back into some of the other questions we had for you?

I am a Dharma embodying, spiritual life coach, here to help you discover your soul’s purpose! I am a lover of life, great food, mindful practices and letting my soul shine. I am a mother to five beautiful children and a student of life and its lessons.

Over the years, I have overcome many health issues and obstacles. Most recently, I have overcome mental health issues (trauma-based) and realized that I have the power to create my own reality. Each adversity has brought me a new level of consciousness and trust in myself, my intuition and the power of the Universe.

I am here to share my story, my wisdom, my knowledge, my support and my love to help others dive deeper into their consciousness to discover their soul again! Life, societal “norms” and conditioning have helped you forget what an amazing soul you are inside that human body. I want to help you unleash your truth and share your light with the world in the way that ONLY YOU CAN!

If you had to pick three qualities that are most important to develop, which three would you say matter most?

Breathwork, meditation, and yoga have changed my LIFE! Yoga translates to everything in life: how you eat, how you talk, how you love, how you show up, how you overcome obstacles, how you learn, and how you grow. Creating non-negotiable time in my day has helped me to bring these modalities into my DAILY practice. I learned a technique called bookending my days almost 10 years ago. With this technique, the first 10-15 min after you wake up and before you go to bed are YOURS to implement any new habits or just be with yourself. I started with about 10 min and now have increased that to one whole hour. Our days can take wild turns with appointments, work, cancelations, emergencies, kids, partners, etc, so devoting your first and last minutes of your day to yourself is a powerful way to create self-care practices that stick.

Looking back over the past 12 months or so, what do you think has been your biggest area of improvement or growth?

Self-acceptance has been my biggest area of growth in the past 12 months. I carried a lot of guilt, shame, and embarrassment around my abusive (sexual, mental, and emotional) marriage. How did I let it happen? How was I so stupid? Why didn’t I leave sooner? Why doesn’t anyone understand me? How do I talk about what happened to me? How do I walk with my head held high after the degrading things that happened to me? So many questions that challenged my self worth. How could others accept me if I didn’t even accept myself?

I did the inner work to identify the belief system I was subscribing to and identified which beliefs weren’t serving me and which needed some reframing. Breathwork, meditation, and yoga all helped me on the journey within to help MOVE the energy and stories that were no longer serving me and to strengthen the stories and beliefs that would help me grow, shine, and thrive.

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