We’re looking forward to introducing you to Psychic Amanda Marquez. Check out our conversation below.
Hi Amanda , thank you for taking the time to reflect back on your journey with us. I think our readers are in for a real treat. There is so much we can all learn from each other and so thank you again for opening up with us. Let’s get into it: What is a normal day like for you right now?
I am a momma bear first and foremost to a Special Needs child. He is my whole world and everything I do in one way or another centers around him and ensuring he has a life filled with happiness and loving energy. I teach him how to connect with his ancestors and loved ones so he will always feel their energy and know how to tune into their energy when life throws curveballs.
We spend our days homeschooling, working on valuable life skills and learning the art of emotional regulation through meditation and spiritual practices.
Each day, I set aside time to share psychic messages through a variety of Social Media platforms and work with customers one on one via phone readings that can be booked through my website. My time is limited because my little one always comes first. Keeping a strong and healthy family dynamic and environment is my first priority in life.
Can you briefly introduce yourself and share what makes you or your brand unique?
My introduction into the realm of Spirituality and Psychic Abilities was not a common path. I was inducted, you may say, by Spirit itself. I was going through a very dark time in my life and was suffering through addiction and could not find the strength to overcome on my own. One day, I began to randomly hear the voices of Spirits. They were not soft, they were not gentle, they were utterly terrifying and threatening. Every time I went to use, the voices became more and more evil. They would tell me not to use to avoid the evil and when I refused and used anyway they would come in with hard truths from my past and reveal to me how I was impacting not only my own life but the lives of those I truly cared about. The way they spoke when I was using was not kind; it was devastating. Mind you it felt very evil because I had never heard the voices of Spirits and it was scary and they intentionally made it unpleasant as being soft and gentle was not going to get the job done; not with my personality. The more I listened to them and listened to what they were actually trying to reveal, the more I became self aware of my own actions and the implications of them on myself and my loved ones. I began to think twice before indulging in my addiction for I knew they would come in with that terrifying energy. I lost everything and everyone I loved during this dark process and retreated into isolation. You can’t just tell people you are all of a sudden hearing voices and expect them to be understanding. They will think you are crazy. Those I did tell turned on me instead of trying to help and I definitely understand as it probably terrified them as well. This was a journey I had to embark on solo with only the Spirits as my guide.
I began to ask Spirit to help me rid myself of the addiction and as I stepped into my self awareness and desire for change, Spirit became softer, more gentle. I decided to quit cold turkey with the help of Spirit. I set up an air mattress and watched movies as they gently talked me through the cold sweats and the sudden urges to use again. I slept, ate and detoxed by myself, locked in a room. This was a process that took about 4 days and as I shed the toxins from my body I felt divinely protected and the voices from Spirit encouraged me through that process. I was never alone in my suffering. I could actually feel the “demons” leave my body.
After, I released myself from addiction the voices of Spirits remained. I thought that they would leave me, I had believed maybe they were a byproduct of my addiction a form of psychosis that lingered on. (If that’s the case it’s permanent at this point, lol. I’m good with it.)
It had been about 4 months since I had last used and even though the “Spirits” were no longer harassing me. I wanted to rule out Schizophrenia and Psychosis so I set myself up with a psychiatrist with the intention of getting a diagnosis. I went through the sessions and was never diagnosed as I did not fit the “criteria” and the psychiatrist told me they were not sure what was going on. I remember they pulled out their book and pointed at the qualifiers stating you do not have enough of them to qualify. I just had the voices and believe me I wanted that diagnosis for clarity as I have a very scientific mind and was actually an atheist at the time. I pushed for that diagnosis to no avail. The psychiatrist did give me medication for the “voices” but they never went away. They just chilled with me gently talking to me and empowering me throughout the journey. The medication made me feel like a zombie, I was out of touch with myself and struggled with daily tasks and the “voices” were not leaving so I decided that I would quit the medication. When I did I felt more myself and the “voices” remained just as they were when I was on the medication.
Spirit did speak with me throughout the whole medication process and encouraged me to see it through, so I could form my own conclusions. They did mention that they were coming to me from a place of love. I could truly feel that and I started to look at my experience from a different lens outside of the medical arena. I learned about “voice hearers” and channelers and found that there were many who were actually inspiring who weren’t considered crazy and who lived very normal lives. Their voices were considered “gifts”. I started to explore a deeper meaning for my experiences and looked through the lens of Spirtual Awakening. Down the rabbit hole, Amanda went.
I learned about the Dark Night of the Soul which happens to many individuals on the Spiritual path. It is a time of great reckoning and is paired with the shedding of what no longer serves us. It is a time of Darkness and Shadow Work. We delve deep to heal the trauma induced aspects of ourselves that have been left unattended and buried deep within. My life was riddled with traumatic experiences from my wee days. There was so much to unpack. The Dark Night is not a journey for the weak and sometimes it’s not a journey you choose; rather it chooses you. As I delved deeper, one by one my deeply buried past traumas revealed themselves and Spirit worked with me to heal and derive knowledge from those parts of myself I had buried to protect my heart. As I faced those traumas head on; I learned from them, I gave my purest love to them and that allowed me to find myself again. It helped me to understand why I kept choosing the path of addiction. Using was a form of self medication that helped me to forget the past and armour up in a way. Addiction helped me to function at a time when I could not face or understand how to transmute my pain. Through my Dark Night and with nudges from Spirit I learned how to self soothe and call upon the Archangels and my Heavenly Family to assist when I felt I couldn’t find the strength to heal on my own. I started delving into Angel Meditations and as I was already visually seeing Angels throughout this entire process (yes, even the ones with eyes). I felt called to their presence. When I would meditate with the Angels I could feel their energy within me, a healing sparkly sensation that uplifted and soothed. Even breathing became easier. Going though this process and doing the healing work on myself ignited a newfound passion within me. A knowing that I could always tap into the realm of the unseen to get through the hard times. I could always speak with my Angels and Ancestors in any moment and I do all day everyday. It was a revelation that my voices were not the enemy, they are there to heal and uplift me so that I could regain my power in this life and that I have.
It has been about a decade since I had my Spiritual Awakening, I have remained clean and have grown exponentially from the journey and those same voices that once haunted me and scared me sober now work hand in hand with me to deliver messages of healing that help others to reclaim their own sovereignty and move forward when life feels unbearable. My Spirit Guides are my Best Friends and had they not stepped in when they did. I may not be here to share my story today. So I share it without the fear of ridicule because it needs to be heard.
Appreciate your sharing that. Let’s talk about your life, growing up and some of topics and learnings around that. Who saw you clearly before you could see yourself?
Spirit saw me clearly before I could see myself. Spirit knew the gentle, soft squishiness that lived deep within my heart. The softness that had been shielded with layers of rock to protect myself from feeling pain. I had learned to numb myself from the outside world. I had learned the art of masking to please others and fit in (I’m neurodiverse). I was living in a hardened shell that I thought served to protect me in a harsh world but it also concealed the most beautiful parts of who I am as an individual.
One day, I was doing a heart chakra meditation and Spirit was showing me a visualization of my heart; it was covered in layers of hardened molten rock. I felt intuitively that I must chisel away at the igneous rock and I chiseled for what seemed like hours until I started to see a glint of light radiating with loving energy. I chiseled until all the rock was removed and the most stunning heart shaped diamond was revealed. All of the hardships, the traumas and pain had created this exquisite diamond a magnificent representation of my heart and it’s ability to transmute pain into beauty. All of the suffering I have endured has made me into the loving, kind, intuitive individual that I am today. That was a powerful experience made possible through visualization techniques that were acquired through consistent meditation and a desire to understand my spiritual experiences.
Sometimes, we need to be reminded of the beauty that resides within that is hidden under the layers of life induced difficulties, trauma and pain and moreoften we need to be reminded to cleanse those layers to reveal hidden truths that lead to empowerment and breakthroughs.
What did suffering teach you that success never could?
Suffering has taught me resilience. We all walk through life and have to deal with the cards we are dealt. It is how we react when faced with challenges, traumas and pain that shapes who we are in this reality.
Suffering has taught me to forgive myself and to have a deeper understanding of others who have inflicted pain upon me. For me personally, I do not forgive everyone who has done evil towards me but through my own suffering and self acknowledgment of my own wrong doings and the healing process that followed, I have developed an understanding of Karma. I have a deep knowledge of the process that each soul will eventually have to endure to face their own demons and heal themselves whether that be in this life or the next. That understanding helps me to cope with the horrors that were not only prevalent in my life but in society as a whole. We will all suffer in this life there is no way around it. I have a deep admiration for those who share their stories of suffering and help others to heal through their shared experiences. There is power in that.
Success can be measured in so many ways. I like to think of it as conquering your demons and offering love to those you care about without letting the things you have suffered through impact others in a negative way. That’s success to me! Much more important than financial gain, status or fame. Leave this world better than the one you came into and allow the seeds of love that you plant to blossom in those that you impact. That’s a legacy.
It’s through suffering that success had made itself possible. For me there is not one without the other.
I think our readers would appreciate hearing more about your values and what you think matters in life and career, etc. So our next question is along those lines. What are the biggest lies your industry tells itself?
Spirituality is a path that is walked in Hermit Mode. It is a path that requires solitude and a deep understanding of your own Soul. Your values, beliefs and spiritual understandings will be shaped by your own morals and lived experiences. There are many individuals within this industry that will shame others for the way they believe or practice. These individuals will try to mold you to their personal belief systems and that can cut you off from your own exploration and hinder your spiritual growth. If you want true expansion you must be willing to put in the work and that starts within. You do not need to pay me or any other Spiritual individual to find the truths that lay within yourself. You need only delve deep within and be willing to explore.
There are many of us that can help point you in the right direction but if you’re not willing to put in the work and allow your own beliefs to shape and take hold the spiritual guidance from another will not hold value in the long run. Be open to your own intuition and believe in the things that bring you happiness and joy without worrying about the judgements of others.
The Spiritual Community just like any other community is riddled with those who judge the paths of others. Why? … because we are all human and our brains are prone to judgement, it’s what keeps us safe. So just be careful as you explore and only hold onto the wisdom that feels right in your core. Trust in your own intuitive hits. You are allowed to follow the path that feels right for you.
Okay, so let’s keep going with one more question that means a lot to us: When do you feel most at peace?
I am a firm believer in creating a space that feels sacred to your soul. That starts within the home. Our home is filled with love, every corner, every nook is filled with something that makes my family smile. We have an abundance of carebears and stuffed animals and each represents a loved one who has passed. We give them lots of hugs. Weird, yes, but it works for us.
We have an alter that stays up year round. Upon it, pictures of our Heaven Buddies (it’s what my son and I call them), each person who has passed from this realm to the next is honored and we leave them gifts and trinkets. The alter is lit with sparkling lights that change colors with the seasons. We paint sugar skulls and place our loved ones glasses on them or put santa hats and reindeer ears on them for Christmas. We include our ancestors in all of our activities and in turn they communicate and help to increase the peaceful vibe within our home. Our deceased loved ones always know they are welcome and they show up and show out because we leave that door open.
I find myself at my most peaceful when I brew a cup of tea, light a fire in the hearth and create art projects or homeschool my little guy while listening to relaxing lofi music. It’s these moments that are the most meaningful to me and these moments that are absolutely irreplaceable.
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