An Inspired Chat with Amy Wade of New England

Amy Wade shared their story and experiences with us recently and you can find our conversation below.

Amy, so good to connect and we’re excited to share your story and insights with our audience. There’s a ton to learn from your story, but let’s start with a warm up before we get into the heart of the interview. What are you being called to do now, that you may have been afraid of before?
I’m being called to dive deeper into my consciousness every single day. After my experience in Mexico with psychedelic medicines 6 years ago, my perception of life has completely changed. I used to be an atheist. It was the most depressing existence. I had no faith in anything. I was depressed, suicidal, hopeless, bitter, and angry. Finding faith in a higher power has given my life a new meaning. I refer to this power as God, Universe, Spirit, and/or Creator. Although I still battle depression on a daily basis, I’m not suicidal anymore. I know I’m on this path for a reason greater than I can fathom. I’m learning to surrender control and trust God’s plan for me. I pray a lot. I meditate. I journey with spiritual guides, shamans, and plant medicines. I work on my inner-self. All of the “ugly” sides of Amy- it’s hard work. It’s scary. I recognize my faults, my addictions, my bad habits, my self-pity, my anger, and my negative thoughts. I feel shame. I feel regret. I’m learning to forgive myself. I’m learning to love myself. Honestly, I find it easier to forgive others than myself. How messed up is that? But I think we can all relate. God is calling me to GO DEEP. To face my deepest, darkest fears, and to rise above them. This is how I’m HEALING. It’s by far, the greatest challenge of my life.

Can you briefly introduce yourself and share what makes you or your brand unique?
My name is Amy Wade. I’m a flawed, insecure, and emotional person on a life-long journey to rise above my limitations and become my best self. I call myself an “actress and a writer,” but there are times when I question this pursuit. I can’t predict the future, therefore I’ve learned to accept that God might have a different plan for me. For now, I continue to work hard on my craft, training and auditioning and writing material that is relatable to society. Mental health is a big one for me since I’ve struggled with it most of my life. I also enjoy writing comedy, which the world needs more than ever. To answer your question, “What makes me special/interesting/unique?”
I’m as REAL as it gets. Raw. Honest. Sometimes broken, but never down for the count. And if you’re struggling, I WILL BE THERE FOR YOU. I will help you find your light.

Great, so let’s dive into your journey a bit more. What did you believe about yourself as a child that you no longer believe?
I believed that I would never overcome the depression. I was convinced that I would live in “darkness” for the rest of my life, or have to kill myself to end my tortured existence.

Was there ever a time you almost gave up?
Yes. In October of 2020. I had several bottles of pills at my bedside, ready to swallow. I had written letters to my family and my fiance, asking them to forgive me. I had spent over 35 years of my life battling depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety, and PTSD. I had been hospitalized three times, seen over 100 different psychiatrists and doctors, and tried over 35 different pharmaceutical drugs, to no avail. Nothing worked. I even tried electric shock therapy. I had given up hope. It was the scariest, loneliest, most horrifying existence. At that point, I was in bed 24 hours a day. I couldn’t eat, or shower, or even brush my teeth. I was so depressed, I could barely speak. I laid in bed all day, thinking about suicide, hour after hour. Finally, the demons in my head convinced me to do it. They told me I would be doing everyone a favor by ending my life.
This is when God intervened. (Although at the time, I didn’t know realize it was God.) He sent an angel (my best friend) who ended up saving my life. It’s truly a miracle that I’m still here. THANK YOU GOD.

Sure, so let’s go deeper into your values and how you think. What’s a belief or project you’re committed to, no matter how long it takes?
Animals are not on this earth for us to torture, imprison, test on, and abuse. I will always fight for the right’s of animals. We need to expose what really goes on in the food, clothing, and chemical industry. Many people know the truth, but do nothing to make a difference. (Out of sight, out of mind.) We must do better, as humans. My heart hurts when I think about the unnecessary torture and suffering of so many living beings. I pray for more people to CARE.

Okay, so before we go, let’s tackle one more area. What is the story you hope people tell about you when you’re gone?
That I did my best to help relieve the suffering of people and animals.

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