Meet Louise But I’m Known As Lady

We’re excited to introduce you to the always interesting and insightful Louise But I’m Known As Lady. We hope you’ll enjoy our conversation with Louise but I’m known as Lady below.

Louise but I’m known as Lady, we are so deeply grateful to you for opening up about your journey with mental health in the hops that it can help someone who might be going through something similar. Can you talk to us about your mental health journey and how you overcame or persisted despite any issues? For readers, please note this is not medical advice, we are not doctors, you should always consult professionals for advice and that this is merely one person sharing their story and experience.

How Have You Overcome or Persisted Despite the Challenges Related to Mental Health Issues and Alcoholism?
Part I: The Hell Inside My Head
I want you to understand what hell feels like. It wasn’t a place of fire; it was the four walls of my skull. My mental health was a battlefield, and vodka was the only shield I had left. For the last year, I didn’t just drink—I drowned. I needed liters of vodka every single day just to push through the morning, just to stop the shaking, just to silence the terror.
The voices were relentless. They whispered, then they screamed. They told me I was sick, that I had cancer—all types of cancer. The fear was a living thing wrapped around my throat. I remember one morning, brushing my teeth, and seeing blood. My mind, already poisoned by anxiety, instantly Googled it: mouth cancer. That was it. I was so terrified of confirming my diagnosis that I stopped brushing my teeth entirely. The rot wasn’t just in my mind; it was starting in my body.
I gave up on the world. I couldn’t drive. I couldn’t leave the house unless I had numbed myself first. I had blackouts where I lost hours, and the shame of what I might have done during those black holes was unbearable. I felt like a ghost, haunting my own life. I was living in hell in my own head.
Part II: The Ultimate Betrayal
The greatest agony was the mother I had stopped being. My teenage daughter deserved a present, loving parent, and she got me—a shell of a woman, lost in a haze of depression and denial. That guilt, that feeling of failing the one person I loved most, was a weight I carried every time I took another drink. I became convinced I was worthless, a failure, an awful person.
I was so depressed, so far gone, that I didn’t even bother to wash up or change clothes. I’d walk to the liquor store in my pajamas, my hair unbrushed, my eyes glazed over. They knew me. They knew my order. They didn’t ask what I needed, they asked if I needed the liter or the fifth of vodka. I would drink that immense volume alone, from the early light of dawn until the middle of the night. I was dissolving, piece by agonizing piece.
Part III: The Plea of the Desperate
But even at my absolute bottom, when all hope was gone and I was ready to surrender to death, something stirred. I felt a piercing, agonizing pain in my back—so sharp I truly believed my kidneys were finally failing me. This was it. The price for my years of abuse had come due.
I crumpled. With a cup of liquor shaking in my hand—alcohol, tobacco (Black and Milds), and marijuana running through my veins—I looked up from the floor of my despair and reached out to God with my whole heart. I couldn’t take the torment anymore. I asked him, begging through tears:
“If you take this pain away, I will stop drinking.”
It was a final, desperate bargain. I collapsed into sleep, expecting to wake up in the same misery, or maybe not wake up at all.
Part IV: The Miracle that Cleansed Me
I woke up, and the back pain was gone.
But that was only the beginning of the miracle. The pain I had lived with—the insatiable need for oblivion—had vanished, too. It wasn’t a slow lessening; it was a total, immediate cleansing.
I no longer desired alcohol. I no longer desired tobacco. I no longer desired marijuana. The taste, the craving, the deep-seated, life-and-death need—it was completely gone.
God truly saved me. He reached down into the hell I had created and pulled me out in one perfect, merciful moment. My recovery was not a battle I had to fight alone; it was a grace that flooded my life and washed away decades of sickness. If you are struggling, please know this: When you reach your bottom and surrender, God is waiting there to meet you.

Thanks for sharing that. So, before we get any further into our conversation, can you tell our readers a bit about yourself and what you’re working on?

My Mission: Turning Pain Into Purpose with Khaos2Klarity
From Patient to Professional: My Work in Recovery
My professional life is intrinsically linked to the experience I just shared. I am a Licensed Social Worker and a dedicated Substance Abuse Counselor. I have committed my life to helping others find their way out of the darkness I once inhabited.
I currently serve in several key roles across the recovery landscape, channeling my experience into action:
• Case Manager at Cleveland Clinic Rehabilitation Center (Beachwood): Here, I coordinate vital care and resources, helping individuals rebuild their lives and create structured plans for long-term well-being.
• Crisis Recovery Center Clinician at Riveon mental health and recovery. This role places me on the front lines, helping stabilize people during their most acute moments of crisis—when they feel they have nowhere left to turn.
The Special Connection: Khaos2Klarity
My personal brand, Khaos2Klarity, is the heart of my mission. It perfectly describes the path I walked, from the sheer chaos of addiction and mental illness to the quiet clarity of sobriety and faith.
What is most exciting and special about my work is the authenticity I bring to the table. I don’t just read about addiction in a textbook; I know its voice, its shame, and its destructive power because I lived it. When a patient tells me they feel hopeless, or that they can’t imagine living without their substance, I can look them in the eye and say, “I know. I’ve been there. And there is a way out.”
My work is built on Radical Compassion—the understanding that every person is worthy of dignity and a second chance, no matter how far they have fallen. My story offers a tangible message of hope: complete transformation is possible, moving from the greatest Khaos to lasting Klarity.
New Focus and Future Goals
I am currently a dedicated Graduate Student at Youngstown State University, pursuing my Master of Social Work (MSW) degree, and I am proud to be graduating in May 2026. I am completing my crucial internship at Glenbeigh Inpatient Treatment Center, where I am gaining invaluable experience in the highest level of care.
The long-term goal for Khaos2Klarity is to expand my reach, potentially through public speaking, writing, and advocacy, to show that a spiritual awakening can be the foundation for a professional calling. I want readers to know that if you are struggling, please reach out. There is help, there is hope, and there is a path forward.

Looking back, what do you think were the three qualities, skills, or areas of knowledge that were most impactful in your journey? What advice do you have for folks who are early in their journey in terms of how they can best develop or improve on these?

🔑 The Three Keys to Freedom: From Chaos to Clarity
When I look back at the abyss I crawled out of, the persistence wasn’t just physical—it was spiritual and emotional. If I could give my struggling self, or anyone early in their journey, three things, these would be the three qualities, skills, or areas of knowledge that were most impactful in my ultimate deliverance. I want these words to bring you tears of absolute, breathtaking joy.
1. Radical Surrender & Resilience (The Quality) 🕊️
The miracle started with Radical Surrender to God, but it is sustained by Resilience. I have overcome one of the hardest things in my life. Acknowledging my powerlessness was the ultimate act of courage. Every day since February 10, 2021, the Resilience to say no to alcohol and all other mind-altering substances is what keeps the miracle alive.
My Heartfelt Advice: Stop trying to fix it yourself. Surrender doesn’t mean defeat; it means victory. Get on your knees and say, “I can’t. You can. Please help.” After that moment, remember your own strength. You are overcoming one of the hardest things in life. Every day is a new opportunity to exercise that resilience, knowing that your “no” today secures your freedom tomorrow.
2. Authentic Vulnerability (The Skill) 🗣️
The isolation was the fuel for the addiction. The skill of Authentic Vulnerability meant telling my entire truth, without editing the ugliest parts. This built the foundation for my professional brand, Khaos2Klarity.
My Heartfelt Advice: To improve this skill, you must practice truth-telling even when your voice shakes. Shame cannot survive when it is spoken aloud. Find a trustworthy person and let them see you at your worst. Your story is not a burden; it is your light, waiting to shine.
3. The Knowledge of Divine Grace (The Area of Knowledge) ✨
I spent years believing I was irreparably broken. The impact of Divine Grace was the absolute knowledge that I was saved not because I earned it, but because I was loved unconditionally when I deserved it least. My instantaneous freedom was a direct, tangible gift from God.
My Heartfelt Advice: Seek out the knowledge that you are loved unconditionally. Understand that your past does not define your future. That moment of absolute surrender is enough. You are not defined by the liters you drank or the mistakes you made with your teenage daughter. You are defined by the love that is waiting to meet you when you finally reach out. Believe that the joy of freedom is not a reward for being perfect, but a gift waiting for you to accept. Tears of sorrow will turn into tears of absolute, breathtaking joy. The realization that I was broke free from the chains of my addiction by a love far greater than my own willpower sustains me every day. My alcoholism has turned into professionalism—the very chaos that once consumed me now fuels my clarity and my calling

How can folks who want to work with you connect?

🤝 Partnerships and Collaboration: Amplifying the Message of Khaos2Klarity
Absolutely! I am actively looking for mission-aligned individuals and organizations to partner with and help expand the reach of Khaos2Klarity. My core purpose is to show the world that total transformation is possible—that one can move from addiction’s chaos to lasting clarity—and collaboration is vital because there are so many people out there struggling who need to hear this message of hope.
I am particularly focused on connecting with five types of partners:
1. Creative and Production Partners (Merchandise)
• Who I’m looking for: Apparel designers, graphic artists, merchandising companies, and small business owners who specialize in creating branded products like T-shirts, hats, and hoodies.
• The Collaboration: I want to put the Khaos2Klarity brand directly onto wearable items. This merchandise will serve as a conversation starter, a symbol of hope for those in recovery, and a way to fund future advocacy work. I need partners who can help design, produce, and distribute high-quality apparel that visually captures the power of breaking free from the chains of addiction.
2. Sisterhoods and Community Support Groups
• Who I’m looking for: Women’s empowerment groups, supportive sisterhoods, recovery fellowships, and organizations focused on building strong, empathetic community networks.
• The Collaboration: I believe deeply in the power of women lifting each other up. I seek opportunities to share my testimony within these groups to foster authentic vulnerability, helping women feel safe enough to share their own struggles and find their path to being broke free from the chains of addiction. I want to build platforms where women can find strength and clarity together.
3. Digital Content Creators and Media Professionals
• Who I’m looking for: Individuals or agencies specializing in storytelling, especially those skilled in digital media, podcasting, or video production. This includes mental health advocates, faith-based organizations, and addiction recovery platforms. I would love to meet Eric Thomas the hip-hop preacher he’s such a brilliant motivational speaker.
• The Collaboration: I need partners who can help me take the raw, powerful testimony of Khaos2Klarity and package it for mass consumption. This could mean producing a podcast series, developing shareable video content explaining the journey from chaos to professionalism, or crafting impactful long-form articles. I want help translating my lived experience into accessible, high-quality content that can travel the digital world.
4. Mental Health and Addiction Organizations
• Who I’m looking for: Non-profits, treatment centers, social work organizations, and advocacy groups that serve vulnerable populations.
• The Collaboration: I am seeking opportunities to offer my expertise as a Licensed Social Worker and Counselor. This could involve public speaking engagements, leading workshops on resilience and spiritual recovery, or consulting on case management and crisis intervention strategies based on the chaotic clarity model. I want to bring my message of hope directly into clinical settings.
5. Spiritual and Faith-Based Leaders
• Who I’m looking for: Pastors, community leaders, and faith organizations that understand the profound role of spiritual awakening in my recovery.
• The Collaboration: I want to share my testimony in spaces where faith is recognized as a catalyst for healing. I would love to collaborate on events or resources that bridge the gap between clinical addiction treatment and spiritual renewal, illustrating how Divine Grace provided the immediate freedom I found on February 10, 2021.
How to Connect with Khaos2Klarity
If you are reading this and believe your work aligns with the mission to help others break free from the chains of addiction

Contact Info:

• Instagram: Ms_soberissexy
• Facebook: Louise Leonard
• Youtube: Khaos2clarity
• Other: www.tiktok.com/@khaos2klarity
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