Alright – so today we’ve got the honor of introducing you to Eddie “Lloyd Knox” Covarrubias. We think you’ll enjoy our conversation, we’ve shared it below.
Hi Eddie “Lloyd Knox”, thank you so much for opening up with us about some important, but sometimes personal topics. One that really matters to us is overcoming Imposter Syndrome because we’ve seen how so many people are held back in life because of this and so we’d really appreciate hearing about how you overcame Imposter Syndrome.
Overcoming imposter syndrome is something that I still work on every day. When I first started as a Cinematographer, I had no idea what I was really doing other than “oh that looks cool, let me point my camera at it and see what happens!” My journey was pretty much that for the first 5 years of filming. Since Roller Derby had little to no videography representation, my wife Ivy eSKAndalo and I decided to take the risk and invest in better equipment to make a serious push towards becoming what I felt the community needed. Opportunities started opening up in the form of filming short films for different leagues and organizations around the United States. As I started to visit more places and release more content that began to reach outside of the United States, people would begin to talk to me about our videos and how it helped them become more invested in all aspects of the sports. I felt the imposter syndrome upon me because I wondered if they felt that way about me because I was a great cinematographer and editor, or was it because I was the only one?
I especially felt the imposter syndrome during my first international filming trips to Mexico and Australia in 2019. I felt that I didn’t belong there doing what I was doing because I didn’t have the experience or knowledge to rightfully be brought in to capture their respective tournaments and training. My imposter syndrome was at an all time high…and then the world shut down. When the pandemic hit and everything in life came to a halt, it brought a lot of feelings and emotions to the forefront that I previously didn’t realize were there. I felt very hollow because my identity was wrapped in something I wasn’t able to perform. I began to unravel that my importance on this planet wasn’t due to my filming and editing, but it was the passion that I brought to it. I did a lot of emotional work and self reflection and was ready to put in the work once Roller Derby finally returned in 2022. To this day, the imposter syndrome still pops up when I enter new and unfamiliar grounds in my career. But as quickly as the doubts pop up, it’s quickly silenced by reminding myself to simply “be creative and have fun!”
Appreciate the insights and wisdom. Before we dig deeper and ask you about the skills that matter and more, maybe you can tell our readers about yourself?
I’m the Cinematographer, editor and Jack of all trades for HitSquadTv and I’ve been in the industry going on 11 years! I have the honor and opportunity to tell the stories of athletes, officials, personnel and media in the underrated sport of roller derby. Our goal is to create opportunities that were previously unavailable so the next generation of derby can thrive and take over the hearts of the world. It’s truly the sport of the future and I’m beyond proud to be at the forefront of its growth and expansion!
There is so much advice out there about all the different skills and qualities folks need to develop in order to succeed in today’s highly competitive environment and often it can feel overwhelming. So, if we had to break it down to just the three that matter most, which three skills or qualities would you focus on?
The three qualities that made the most impact were: 1. Passion. Passion is energy. Passion can help bring your vision to life, and that same passion can ignite the fire in the souls of like minded individuals to help propel your vision. Passion is currency of the highest accord. 2. Adaptability. Every Roller Derby tournament, just like everyday life, is different for better or worse. Some venues are skating rinks that are dark and low lit. Some venues are in big, well lit buildings. And sometimes you film outside in the day or nighttime. Being able to plan ahead is great and encouraged, but being able to adapt to circumstances can help you unlock new ways of creating and seeing things you originally weren’t able to access. 3. Be a student. I do my best to never assume I know everything. This attitude has led me to learning skills and techniques that I can use for work and everyday life. Never being afraid to ask questions or losing the fear of being wrong will open up new doors and opportunities for you. The moment I think I know everything, I should quit. Because why continue doing something if the passion isn’t there, it’s not challenging and you’re not learning?
Awesome, really appreciate you opening up with us today and before we close maybe you can share a book recommendation with us. Has there been a book that’s been impactful in your growth and development?
The greatest book I ever read was “Who moved my cheese” by Spencer Johnson. The book made me realize who I was, how I approached situations and who I eventually wanted to become. It was so valuable and impactful to me because it broke down everything in such a meaningful and thoughtful way that the more pages you read, the more invested you were because it felt like it was talking directly to you. It’s amazing.
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