Meet Eleven xx

We recently connected with Eleven Xx and have shared our conversation below.

Eleven , we’re thrilled to have you sharing your thoughts and lessons with our community. So, for folks who are at a stage in their life or career where they are trying to be more resilient, can you share where you get your resilience from?
The cosmic joke of life is that through the greatest adversity comes the greatest breakthrough. It’s often those that have gone through the depths of the seasons of inevitable abyss swallowing us completely whole that we come out the other side with an intoxicating awareness of what the word resilience truly means.

So when asked, where does your strength and adversity come from? I say, from going through hard sh*t and not spiritually bypassing it. I allow the hard days to be hard days. I sit in the storm and aim for the eye.

In 2019, the year before the entire planet went into panic all together from the pandemic, I found myself alone in the desert (literally and metaphorically) at my dark night of the soul in my hero’s journey.

I had a high paying contract with a billion dollar agency complete, I finally found the gumption to leave my toxic and abusive marriage and file for divorce, and I moved out of my home in LA to Joshua Tree to be in absolute solitude while I embarked on my healing journey and pilgrimage to find what I call: “the self beyond the Self.” No one to face but myself and my own shadows. It was excruciatingly silent and confronting.

Actually, I wasn’t completely alone. Thank goodness I had my trusted “familiar” aka: my dog Cash named after the man in black Johnny. This helped immensely.

Together we hiked the trails of the barren desert and layed on the hot rocks to meditate. This time of spaciousness saved my life and prepared me for the next massive storm that I had been intuiting and seeing in dreams and visions.

My time completed in the high desert, and I felt the call of the jungles in Peru, Costa Rica and my mother land in Mexico. I listened by selling all of my belongings, packing my bags and buying one way flights. The nomadic journey took me to 2021. I had been fortunate enough to utilize my savings and unemployment checks to afford myself the much needed rest. I read books, painted, danced naked in my airbnbs, wrote poetry, lounged by the beach, sat with plant medicines and the wisdom of the elders and just took it one day at a time.

Just as I was feeling like I could catch a breath and I had regained my inner artists inspiration… the call that I had been forever fearful of came in during hurricane “Grace” while I was in the Yucatán.

With only 1 bar of signal due to power outages and no internet connection, I answered the phone to hear my mother frantically in tears say “We’ve been trying to get ahold of you for hours! Honey, dad has passed away.”

Just 14 days prior she had confirmed his positive test for COVID-19 which led to a hospital admission cut short by him accepting his fate and transcendence into the Great Beyond. Taking his last breath all alone in that setting was always something he shared was his greatest fear.

My father was a well revered TV producer, Inventor, and world traveling Magician for a living — he came from unspeakable abuse and transmuted his childhood pain into art and a tapestry of tales that changed many lives. Like a total Merlin, he left those behind and simply disappeared back into the ether leaving behind and passing down his wand into well equipped palms.

After a few years of healing from the trauma response to such sudden news, I’ve come to a place of peace that surpasses all understanding in my heart. I embrace the full knowing that it’s often our greatest fears that catapult us into a higher dimension of mastery.

My resilience comes from the acceptance of this life being full spectrum. A quote I shared at my father’s memorial was, “Facing darkness and choosing the light is the most profound calling of all.”

This continues to remain true.
Onward the adventure. The show must go on…

Thanks for sharing that. So, before we get any further into our conversation, can you tell our readers a bit about yourself and what you’re working on?
The artists way is often riddled with roller coaster twists and turns. Such is my life and storyarch. I’ve lived many lives within one form. From a child of magic performing on stages with white rabbits raised in religious roots, to becoming a well known beauty influencer and walking red carpets, to a major spiritual awakening and shaving my head, letting go of all my belongings, and transforming beyond the binary into an outspoken and sexually liberated rainbow bridge within the shamanic realms.

I walk in the world as Eleven, a two-spirited being on mission to transcend rules and regulations and pave the way for other seekers on the journey toward a more vivified way of living.

I have devoted to my life as an artist within the renaissance (rebirth in French) we find ourselves within at such a time as this. That includes many medium and everyday is different.

I have developed 1:1 mentorship programs and immersive retreat experiences for others to explore within with the intention to allow the continued curiosity to cultivate within community.

For those facing the death & rebirth journey themselves, I would love to invite them into joining the Metamorpho™ and Chrysalism™ which is a curriculum that I created that I am extremely humbled to say has really transformed lives before my eyes.

In addition to spiritual advising, I also offer creative direction for fellow thought-leaders, influencers, artists, and brands. I assist them in out-of-the-box strategy and blueprints for their bloom.

There is so much advice out there about all the different skills and qualities folks need to develop in order to succeed in today’s highly competitive environment and often it can feel overwhelming. So, if we had to break it down to just the three that matter most, which three skills or qualities would you focus on?
Humility is key. Leading with an open heart and child like curiosity, remembering there are never black and white answers has served me well. Consistently choosing kindness while simultaneously dancing within holding strong boundaries. Self love serves the whole. Learning to say no and leading with compassion as often as you are able.

My advice: spend time with kiddos and with the elders. The bookends of life allow us to access more empathy and a more grounded way of being.

Okay, so before we go we always love to ask if you are looking for folks to partner or collaborate with?
I am always seeking to co-create with fellow trailblazers, misfits, and sacred rebels in this circus of life. I have many tricks up my sleeves and desire to continue to congregate with others that play within the magi-call realms of make believe. The new frontier is already here, and as I look inside my crystal ball I see a road ahead that has been pioneered with others that have also faced their own challenges and come through the other side working in tandem. I am calling in some angel investors to support the project my father and I had been developing prior to his passing. Now he is channeling in and through me from the quantum which is quite fun and the games have begun!

If some of my story has resonated with you, I invite you to reach out. Let’s grab a coffee and co-create!

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Alejandro Killjoy

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